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Stuck at 136....trying to NOT get frustrated.

I've been stuck at 136lbs for a couple weeks now. I am trying to not get frustrated and give up but it is really really hard when i'm not seeing much by way of results. I am feeling better overall and feeling more healthy that i was before i started P90X but i it's looking like im not going to hit my gold of 120lbs at the rate that i am going. From what i have read online most women stall out from the 30-60 day range and see the most results at the end of the 90 days, the best results being at the end of 180days (meaning they do the program again a second time only taking a rest week). I missed a workout this week because i picked up an extra shift at aerie so as soon as my youngest daughter wakes up from a nap im gonna try and do BOTH workouts. arms, back and triceps AND legs and back. it's gonna be a long 2 hours. i meant to do one this morning but i was just too tired and needed a nap if i was ever going to make it through the day!

Back and better than ever!

I spent week 4 not working out as much as i should have because i was still taking it easy on my wrist, but now that it's feeling 90% better i am jumping into this week full speed ahead. Tonight was corn syng and boy did it kick me right back into shape. I am gonna feel this tomorrow but in a good way of course. I'm down 8 pounds from when i started p90x and im very excited to be entering phase 2 because that is when most women lose the bulk of their weight and i can not wait to see those results. its gonna be a great summer with cute sundresses and tanks i can not wait!We had a little break in weather last week and it was just a mild taste that spring is not that far away....we all just have to remember that when we are freezing out asses off this week that in 6 months we will be begging for snow!

a week 3 update!

It's time for an update. I'm 3 weeks in and I've lost 8lbs so far!!! Im really impressed with my results because i had to do modified workouts all last week. I hurt my wrist snow blowing all the slush and ice at the end of my driveway and i needed to take a break and get it feeling better before i did some serious damage. It felt like my hand was being ripped off my arm one painful muscle at a time so i bought a brace and wore it all week. On Friday i decided i would do 3 days of Kenpo because it didn't involve and pressure on my wrist and i was sick of sitting around and not being able to do some sort of workout. So Friday, Saturday and Sunday i did 40 mins of kempo each day and it felt good to be doing some sort of activity again. I only lost 1lbs last week, but that is great since i spent Monday-Thursday not doing any sort of real workout at all.
This week is suppose to be my "rest" week but I'm gonna try and repeat week 3 and see if i can do it. My wrist is still sore so it may not be possible, and if it's not I'll do the rest week workouts. It's a lot of cardio which is good because there isn't a lot of pressure put on your hands by way of yoga positions, and the minimal yoga that is involved in the warm ups i can either modify or do them one handed. I'm really looking forward to getting out of the 130's and back into the 120's and if i keep losing 2lbs per week it will only take me another month to do so! My clothes are already starting to fit better and I'm actually able to wash my jeans and then put them in the dryer and not have to preform surgery to get them on! I have a few pairs that i haven't been able to comfortable wear for a few months now and I'm looking forward to being able to wear them in the spring (they have the distressed look with holes and such, way too cold for Syracuse NY winter!)

Week 2, gets an A for effort!!!

I spend Friday and Saturday recovering from a stomach bug....aka throwing up. So getting to P90X was clearly not something that was going to happen. Although i did get in some serious ab workouts with all the throwing up that was going on. Then came the joint pains. OMG they were AWFUL and at one point i seriously wanted Jeremy to just shoot me because it hurt to just sit. I would have been crying if i had any tears left. Luckily my hubby came to my rescue with a tub of ice hot and a bunch of ice bags. That numbed the pain enough so i could finally get to sleep. Sunday i dis attempt to get myself back on track with kenpo and to finish the week strong but all the twisting and bending was too much so i jogged in place for 30 mins while i chatted on the phone with my mom instead.

So i started the week strong, and ended not so great but i did see an overall weight loss of 2lbs for the week. I am looking forward to getting back on track with my workouts and finishing up the next 2 weeks and posting my 30 days in results for all to see. I've been taking pics along the way so people can see my progress and overall transformation and I'm very excited to work hard and get to the end looking better than ever!

Week 2, Do you're best and leave the rest!

I started week two this week. I'm only a few days into the week to but it's going very well so far. Core synergistics kicked my butt as usual, but i managed to get 50mins into it which is a 10 min improvement from last week, and cardio x i was again able to get the whole dvd done. I am only a week in but i am already starting to feel better and i have dropped a couple pounds which has made some of my clothes fit a little more comfortably. I can actually throw my jeans in the dryer again without fear that i won't be able to button them. I am hoping by May that all my jeans fit again and i don't have muffin top anymore. I am realistic about my goals and i know i won't be able to go down another size in jeans because I'm almost 30 and I've had 2 kids. Even if i lost every single ounce of fat on my body my hips aren't going anywhere. The inner tube around my belly id more than welcome to take a hike though! I'm not following the meal plan exactly, but i using it as a guide as far as portions go and % go. It's really hard for me to not reach for my fav carb snacks and i have had the occasional hand full of skittles here and there but i also know that if i don't allow myself a bite or two of the things i love i will end up wanting them more and more and end up pigging out on a pound of skittles and 10 servings of french fries which is way worse than taking a bite when i get the craving and it won't go away.
My husband also started this week, it's his week one and he started on Monday so he is a day ahead of me as far as workouts go. I'm not sure what his overall goal is, but i know he also wants his inner tube to go away (and I'm not gonna lie I'm looking forward to that day). Men tend to lose weight quicker than women do on P90X so it's gonna be tougher for him to stick with it till then end once he gets that drop in weight. For me it's gonna be hard for me to stick with it when Jeremy starts dropping pounds quicker than i do, but i have to remind myself that i won't get the full effect unless to give it the full 90 days. I've also read online that women who do it for 180 days see the BEST results, so after 90 days i might just keep going! Only time will tell.
In other Non workout news today is my Grandma's birthday! She would kill me if i put her age on the internet so i won't be i wanted to send a quick HAPPY BIRTHDAY shout out to my grandma. She will be getting the Happy Birthday phone call from my kids later this afternoon.

Monday is my REST day!!! lots of personal reflection inside :-)

Monday is my rest day, AKA day 7 for my P90X friends. My plan was to go to the gym and do some light weights and tan but it was really cold, and i got out of work really late with the start of a headache so i decided it was a better decision to come home and go to bed instead of pushing myself too far and making myself sick. While a laid in bed with an ice pack on my eyes waiting for the pounding to go away i really took some quiet time to reflect on the last 13 months of my life.
2010 was a very busy year for me. I had alot going on in my life, my kids grew a whole year older, we sold our first home and moved into our brand new built for us home, i made some huge changes in my work and started watching Grace which allowed me to be home all day with my kids and put my energy into my family and friends, and recently some people who i was very close with have shown their true colors and I've had to remove them from my life.
I've really struggled with the loss of some friendships that really meant alot to me, and i am still struggling with the void that has left in in my life but in a conversation i had yesterday with a close friend, she really helped me realize people that can not accept me for who i am, and how i put myself out there are not people who deserve to have my love and loyalty.
I am a handful and i am aware of this, as are the people around me that love me and i keep close in my life, both family and friends. I sometimes say the wrong thing at the wrong time, when i get really stressed or overwhelmed i lash out on the ones i love, or shut down all together and withdraw into my own mind and lose track of my actions. I am a very passionate person, and to some that comes across as competitive. I am not perfect and i know this.
But i am loyal. I love life and i love the people around me more than anything else. I will stand up for my family and friends every single time. I am always there for people when they need me regardless if they can see it or not. I am very straightforward and honest. I try my very best to not judge others who have a different lifestyle/relationship/financial situation than my own. You never have to guess with me i always present myself at face value and i am very honest. If something is bothering me i will tell you, if you're doing something that i thing you will regret later i will tell you, if you want the honest truth i will give it to you every single time. I will never say anything behind your back that i wouldn't say to your face. I would never ever do something to a friend or family member with the premeditated intentions to hurt them, no matter how upset i may get and if i do end up hurting someone i love it really does eat me up inside. I love my friends like i love my family and i will always always be there for them.
What i will not do is let people disrespect me, disregard my feelings, forgive actions that are set out to intentionally cause me hurt and pain, and generally walk all over me. If you can not accept me for who i am, the good AND the bad then i don't have room for you in my life. I'm getting too old to deal with people who can't be upfront an honest, people who talk about me behind my back, or people who think it's ok to do things with the premeditated intentions to hurt people they are close to. It just blows my mind how many people i have kept close to me that don't see the real me, who don't accept me for who i am and who can turn so quickly and stab me in the back and the heart all at the same time.
I do miss the people i have let go recently, i would by lying if i said otherwise, but those holes are being filled by the people around me that love me, and who accept me for who i am. And to those people i have to say Thank You! Thank you for accepting me for who i am, and for your unconditional support. It really does mean the world to me.

Day 6 kenpoX

Kenpo X is HARD!!!!! not so much because it's physical (because it is that too!) but because you have to keep everything balanced, while doing the correct movements and motions. Jeremy is my own personal cheerleader while I'm doing my exercises (mostly because he is starting tomorrow and wants to see what he is getting himself into) but i bet he was laughing on the inside watching me while i tried my best to not fall over or kick the TV!
I finally bought a new bathroom scale (thank you BJs for having them on sale this month!) and weighed myself. I am down 3lbs and i was fully dressed when i stepped on it. When i weighed myself 2 weeks ago it was at the hotel fitness center and i was only wearing my workout pants and a tank top, but with the difference of scales i'm still gonna say i am down 3lbs. I am well on my way to losing 20lbs by May. I will not let carmel corn or cupcakes slow me down, after a week of working hard I'm really starting to feel good and crave crappy food less and less. Don't get me wrong i still want to eat junk food and i will always love it, but i don't feel that NEED for it anymore. I use to NEED candy and sugar and carbs and other stuff that is just JUNK, but that strong gotta have it now or I'm gonna be miserable feeling is slowly leaking out of my body.
I really just can't wait to see the results of this program for me

day 5, one more day till rest!

Today is day 5 for me and the constant body aches are starting to go away. Thank goodness because i was not a happy camper earlier in the week. Today was legs &back, and ab ripper. I have to admit i only got 40 mins into legs and back before i had to stop. I have a bad knee and it was acting up the other day, and was starting to get sore from all the bending and squats so i thought it was best to call it done instead of pushing myself too far. That is really one of the things that i like about this program, he really reminds you to do YOUR best and to not push yourself too far. Set a goal and do your best! he says it over and over but not in an annoying way. I still need to do ab ripper but i need a few mins to take a rest before i get back into things. I've never done ab ripper before so i hope I'm not gonna be hurting tomorrow.
Tomorrow in Kenpo X, which i think is like kickboxing, which should be interesting to watch at a minimum. I am kinda looking forward to it though because I've dealt with alot of stuff this week, and have several people I'd like to kick right about now and this is as close and I'm gonna get. I'd like to leave everyone with a quote from my friend Shelly " My list of people who need cement shoes and swimming lessons is growing rapidly". Priceless!

Day 4

I finally made it through a whole workout!!! WAHOOOOOO!!!!! Lets rewind a second and talk about yesterday though. Yesterday i was suppose to do arms & shoulders and then ab ripper. After some difficulty getting the DVD to play (apparently i need a new DVD player) i was able to get the DVD to work on my bedroom TV. But my knee had been bothering me all night and i only got about 15mins into the workout before my whole leg was shaking and i just could not handle the pain of standing on it anymore so i stopped. So i give myself credit for at least attempting the workout.
Now lets talk about today's workout because i finally got through a whole DVD. It was cardio X and i got through all 50min of it. Go me! I of course was about ready to drop dead when it was over but i got through it! Maybe this will get easier after all!

day 3....feel the burn

Today is day 3. my whole body hurts. it hurts in places i didn't know could hurt. It hurts to sneeze even. This is the part about starting a workout routine that sucks and no one likes. Today is day 3 and i have to do arms and back, and ab ripper. I'm betting it will really hurt to sneeze tomorrow. Yesterday i did YogaX, it is an 1hr30min video and i again only got 40mins into it before my body just would not move anymore and boy was i hurting in places i didnt know could hurt. It did feel good for about 10mins to stretch out those sore muscles and get things moving again but then it got into some pretty complicated things that i just could not physically get my body into those positions as smoothly as the people on the video. I really wish they would put someone who sucks on that video so i wouldn't feel like such a loser. Seriously i know yoga isn't suppose to be "hard" exactly but it's sure not easy either!! The group on the video transitioned into those positions with suck ease and i literally could not do that. I had to stand up and put myself into each position instead of smoothly being able to go from one to another like your suppose to.
In the end it wasn't too bad but i have bad wrists and they just could not handle all that weight on them. I actually thought at one point i was gonna break myself it hurt soooo bad that i decided that i had reached the end of my pain tolerance and decided to stop. After all it's not gonna help me lose weight if i break myself the 2nd day in.

Day Two!

Today is day two. apparently i was suppose to do Yoga X yesterday, but since i cant read half the time i did the wrong DVD. SO i will do Yoga X today instead. That is after i find some Tylenol and some serious inner motivation because i am HURTING today! my legs, arms, stomach they all are very sore. Don't worry its not a broke, torn overdid it hurt, i just need to get use to this much exercise every single day. i should be better in a few weeks and I'm hoping that these workouts don't literally suck the life from me and make me feel physically ill.
Must find the energy to keep moving forward. I watched an episode of the MTV show I use to be fat yesterday and if those people can drop a whole person 3-4 months then i can drop 20-30lbs! Must stay focused.

my P90X Journey day ONE!!

So I've decided to Blog my P90X Journey to weight loss. For those of you who don't know anything about P90X it is an INSANE and INTENSE program designed for extreme weight loss, and an overall lifestyle change. It takes 90 days and I'm hoping to lose 20lobs. I will post before pictures and measurements tomorrow but here is a mini recap of day one.

I am doing the lean program, as it contains the most cardio which is important in burning fat. Day one for me is Core synergistics. it kicked my BUTT!!!! It's a 57 min workout and i only got 40 mins in before i literally could not get myself off the floor. I thought my heart and lungs were gonna burst out of my body and i think i sweat off a pound. it was INTENSE. It's going to take some serious motivation to do that to myself again tomorrow.

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Hi and welcome to 2009! 2008 was a pretty awesome year and i'm hoping that 2009 will be even better. Finges are crossed that Obama can bring on some much needed change in our hurting country right now. Real estate is going downhill fast, no one can get approved, so one can get out from under houses they should not have bought in the first place and in a nutshell it's a HUGE standstill!

Emma had 2 weeks off from school, a snowday the day before vacation, and now today it's way too nasty to even think about sending her to school! This is the joy of living in CNY i guess, other people panic about 3 inches of snow, we send our kids to school in icy and snowy conditions. Natalie has started talking up a storm, and is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO close to poppng through some teeth! She has 2 huge bumps in her mouth, but no tooth yet! I wonder what the doctor will say about that? I have also started my very own WAHM business and i'm hoping it will be a huge sucess in 2009. I have a co-owner, my friend Danielle, and we make cloth diaper accessories. Wetbags, wipes, and inserts and all be bought right here in CNY by two mom's who strive to get quality products into CNY's local cloth diapering experience. There is another mom who makes wetbags, but she might as well sell paper bags because hers are not 1/2 the quality ours are, and her business is shady at best. If you need cloth diaperings accessories and would like to buy them from 2 CNY mom's trying to get the best of the best out there, please just leave me a message or send me an e-mail at diapersewingmamas@yahoo.com

2009 will be a skinnier year for me. That is my ONLY goal, and i'm already working very hard at it. My good friend got Engaged on christmas day, and i want to give her the gift of a skinny bridesmaid for her wedding...so bring on the salad and exersize. My whole body works but it is all worth it if i can get myself looking the way i did in college again!

Cheers to a new year, a new me, and hopefully a fun filled year for all!

short sale????!!!!

So i figured out today WHY excatly they call short sales, short sales....and it has NOTHING to do with the timeframe at all! They call it a short sale because A) Pain in the ass was taken and B) because everyone involved is short on sanity by the time everything is said and done!
Ok lets rewind a second shall we, im working with a client that put in an offer on a house that is going short sale, they put in this offer on October 14th......it is now December 4th and we won't get the green light until next week.....sort on sanity are my clients? Just a tad!! But the good news is we WILL be getting the green light next week....im so excited i could dance on the rooftop, and my clients share the same excitement with me! The fact that is deal will be moving in a forward direction soon is really making life alot easier to deal with right now!


Things are aerie are going positive as well, after a rough few weeks things are getting straightened out and i feel alot better about my position there and the key role i play. This brings me great pleasure because i do enjoy my work, i enjoy the company and i enjoy the contrubution i can make to my family. So two thumbs up to the hard working team at my store.
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Work work work......

Our furnace broke tuesday, ya know because being sick wasn't enough! So anyways to pay for that $700 repair (and the $340 dryer that broke the week before) Jeremy will be doing stock at either AE or aerie saturday mornings until we can get that paid off. Me picking up a weekend shift at aerie would have serously hurt my sanity level because i don't get to see my kids enough as it is right now, so Jeremy took one for the team and said he would work in the stock room. He will be in aerie's stockroom until the middle of Januray, and then after that i may have to see what i can arrange with AE because hopefully by then our full time stock peoson won't be coughing a lung and half on her deathbed!

In other news i'm still on the fence about aerie this week.....i LOVE it there, and i LOVE most the people, but i'm wondering if i'm too old for it (OMG did i JUST say that!!!). Serously though everyone i work with is in their early 20's.....and i'm getting way too close to 30 for my comfort level! Part of working with teens and 20somethings is that they act like teens and 20somethings......and i just don't know how much of it i am gonna be able to handle long term. I forgot that not everyone goes to their job, does their job to the best of their ability and then went home.......NOPE not like that inthe retail world, people play favorites, they listen and don't listen, and then there comes the whole working with ALL girls......girls will be girls and let me tell you i'm waiting for the day it gets UGLY! We also have a high turn around and it's frustrating to see the same people you trained last week quit in a month because they don't like it!!! So it will be interesting to see where i find a nitch within the AE company as a whole.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MILES!!!! I'm off to find a bag to put his present in.....because i'm all out of boy wrapping paper!

I hate being sick....

I had to actuallybreak down today and go to the doctors. I HATE being sick but now im getting sicker and i've been having allergy problems that i have been letting go for too long. Jeremy being the wonderful and loving husband that he is took my sick tushie to the doc, and the stayed home the rest of the day so i could get some rest. Im feeling a little better now but i still can't breathe very well and im worried the children will eat me alive tomorrow.
In other news Natalie is walking now. She has been for a month or so but man she can really go now. She follows Emma around everywhere she goes and even has a few hiding spots i see her go into when she wants to be left alone. Poor Emma this means no more carrying Natalie around (and no more heart attacks for mommy!) and she can't just leave the room to get away from sharing. Natalie is also in LOVE with babydolls. She ALWAYS has to be carrying them around, so its a good thing that Aunt Becky got the twin pack for x-mas 2 years ago.
Tomorrow is Jeremy's birthday and im gonna hopefully have enough energy to make him a cake. He is at the store now getting eggs and i hope i have cake mix......if not i will be buying a cake and telling him i made it myself!



Emma all ready to party it up!


Natalie being silly as usual!

The girls on Halloween! Natalie was a little sick so the I heart mommy shirt was in order!

its that time again!

Well it's time for another monthly update. Jeremy has been busy with work (as usual) and will hopefully be switching projects soon so we will be less busy with work. He was gone last week for work so i wasn't able to work at aerie at all, and let me tell you i had some serous withdraw! I even went shopping at the mall twice last week so i could see some of my aerie friends and of course buy gymboree (did you redeem your gymbucks yet?!). This week i am back to the aerie grindstone, and hopefully picking up a new listing this week as well. Yippie for real estate work, it always seems to come when i couldn't possible be any busier with my life, but it puts money in my savings account, and i of course LOVE real estate so i'm never gonna complain about it (much).

Natalie is walking now. Alot. And it's kinda weird to watch because she is supose to be my baby, forever since we arn't having anymore. SO i guess my baby is officially a toddler now, and it's kinda weird. Emma really likes school. Her newest thing is she wants pierced ears because i have been wearing earlings more latley. I tried to explain to her that it hurts for a second when they pierce them but she didn't seem phased too much by it. If she still wants them after x-mas i may get them done for her birthday. That's a good 4th birthday present right?

Well there is this month's mini update. I'm sicker than a dog so im going to take a nap them go to work.

Another Update

So i have another mini update. Emma started pre-school yesterday!!! I had just come to terms with the fact that i was not going to be able to get her into the program i wanted and i would just school her at home for a year, when i got the phone call that there was an open spot for her! Yippie thank you lord for helping me in my time of need! So anyways she was all excited to go to schho with her new backpack and tinkerbell lunch pail....that is until she realized that Daddy was not staying with her and then she kinda freaked, but the teacher promised me that she only complained for a couple seconds and then played with the other kids. So of course she was soo excited to see mommy and Natalie there to pick her up, and said goodbye to her news friends and came home with us. She only goes every other day so we shall see how tomorrow goes.

In other news i am not a full blown agent!!! I graduated from training a few weeks ago and i'm happy to report i now have my very own deck, and chair (hahaha to my boss) and dont have to stress about getting a listing anymore! Don't get me wrong if you call me up and ask me to list your house i'll do it and be happy about the business, but if i'm gonna have to go out and find brand new clients that were not refered to me i'm going to look for buyers, because it is a buyers market, and at the end of the day if a buyer is gonna buy they will buy something....a seller on the other hand is more likley to back out of selling their house (especally in this market) and them im left with nothing and out money. So bring on the referals guys.....if you refer me a client and i do business with them then you get a gift too!

So that be it for now, check back often and leave me lots of feedback via comments so i will post often! Thanks guys!